The Most Magical Things Can Happen

Need to vent. Need to vent. Need to vent.

I just hate everything!!! It’s like nothing makes sense. I hate how weird I feel about everything all the time! I can’t sleep half the time and when I am sleeping I’m having the most bizarre dreams that may be random but keep leading me to feel like something big and not necissarily good are coming. And soon. I reckon before the school year starts. While I’m training for my new job probably. URGH. I just want everyone in my life to be completely happy for once. No issues. No drama. Nothing. And I don’t want to be the one sitting on the sidelines of all the happiness either. I want to be involved. A part of the happiness.

Disappointment yet again. Always from you. Always in the worst way. I’m holding you higher than what you may deserve. It’s all becoming so questionable. For once just prove my worth with actions not just words that are way too few and far between.

Sadness. I miss you. I will see you again but I can’t help missing you. Even when I talk to you frequently enough. I hate it. I don’t like not being able to chat it up with you when ever the hell I won’t. And what’s worse is that I hate how sometimes you could not care less what I have to say. In one ear and out the other.

Betrayal. You can’t be trusted and promises mean nothing. I’ve been ignored long enough. I deserve to be treated so mcuh better than what you’re bringing to the table. But even though you pretend like I’m not here I can’t stand the desire I still have for your attention.

Boredom. Make it stop.

Anxious. Turn it into constructive time spent.

Heartache. Turn it into a lesson from my past faster.Make them realize the mistakes their making before it’s too late.

This whole thing was written way too fast so it’s not the best, unorganized, and spur of the moment.

High hopes for a magical day to all of you!

One of the worst things in the world is to watch your closest friends destroy themselves and not be able to do anything about it. To know that no matter what you do or say they aren’t going to listen to you. It’s like I’m in one of those damn glass boxes that mimes seem to always find themselves in and no one can hear a word. All I can do is watch it all fall apart being so close, yet so far away.

You want the best for everyone around you. And you want them to know just how much you want it for them. But that’s something they never seem to realize when they need to realize it most. Why is that? Why is it that no one ever seems to listen to what they need to hear most, when they need to hear now more than ever? Why are the most important people are ignored when they’re insight has all the worth in the world?

Why?

It’s simple really.

Because we’re stupid.

So here’s to stupidity. And to would have, could have, and should have. For all the things that would have happened if we had gone about things differently. For every moment you could have again and change. And for all the moments when we realize we should have listened to our loved ones in the times we ignored them most.

Dang Fireworks!

I got hit with a firework tonight.

Yeah it kinda sucked! It was shot and went off and then the still super hot shell decided to hit the back of my left shoulder. But don’t fret. I survived.

It was great today though. Not just because the food is always awesome and I get to see family and have social time. But everyone seemed to be paired today. And maybe on a small level there’s some envy and it gets a little sad but even if that’s true it was okay today. See everyone joined at the hip with some significant other was nice. Why? Well it’s simple really.

For the first time today I got a good look and a good chance to really talk and have random, fun conversations with the boyfriends of 2 cousins of mine who I’ve gotten closer to in the past few years. They’ve both been with these guys for a LONG time but today I just to got to see what makes them awesome. They were very different but both nice, really funny, good looking, awesome guys who seem perfect for my cousins. It was sad realizing I don’t have that right now but so awesome to see how great it can be for others you care about. So congrats to the 4 of them and I wish/hope for the very best and magical of happiness to all of you…

I hope all of you had a great 4th of July. Tomorrow I might begin the early stages of planning yet another Disney vacation!!! We’re going to call some numbers and get a few things straightened out and hopefully all the answers are the ones we want to hear and we will be officially writing our next Disney chapter!!! I can’t wait. I just love it there so much. Main St., U.S.A. is the one place I know I belong.

Happy tumbling everyone! Have a magical day!

& so it begins.

I’d like to make my first post a shout out to my main Marvel man, Spider-Man:

It’s been 7 years since my Spider-Man obsession began. I don’t know why it happened really. Ever since I rode that damn ride at Universal Studios 12 times back-to-back because of the well-known ridiculous rain that occurs in Florida, this Marvel hero has been my favorite of all superheroes…

And here we are now. The day after The Amazing Spider-Man comes to theaters. I’ve seen it already, obviously and loved it. I may or may not have a brand new obsession with star Andrew Garfield. But although it was new villain, new girl, and new director the web-slinging hero means just as much to me now then he did then. My loyalty to the masked vigilante may have appeared to stray over the years, what with all the other heroes of the Marvel Universe gaining popularity, but he will always be the one.

& it isn’t just major motion pictures. Even in his pre-Hollywood days, Spidey is my favorite. I love it all. May not be able to explain it, but for what ever reason he will always be my true love. <3

P.S. Check out the 1960s Spider-Man meme tumblr. It’s one of my favorites and absolutely hilarious! Enjoy! http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/1960s-spiderman